God’s Goodness

Marriage is like a life long course in selflessness and servitude. You put aside your own desires, in favor of those of your spouse and children. From what I can tell, it’s a beautiful thing. You go in as this person who you think you are; but with each passing day, week, month, year….you become so much more. You really don’t realize how much of a worm you were; until you look back, and see how much you’ve evolved into the beautiful butterfly that you are today.

The most beautiful thing about marriage, is that it’s an institution between God, husband and wife. God is the foundation and center of it all. He’s where our needs and desires get met. He is where the wisdom comes from on what to do daily….how to treat your spouse…..how to care for and instruct your children…..when and how to rest. He is the great gift giver; which means that our spouses and children are good and perfect gifts, and we are to steward them well.

Being a full time Stay At Home Wife & Mom (SAHWM) never entered my mind. I resisted it at first; but I’m glad I finally submitted to this treasure God had for me. I absolutely LOVE being with my children all day! They are so funny to me; and I just love how energetic and enthusiastic they are about the things that interest them. I love watching the interaction between all four of them; as well as how they interact with my husband and others. One of the greatest treasures is looking at things through their eyes. They are pureness, perpetual energy, brilliance and inquisitiveness all wrapped up into one. It’s such an honor to watch them grow holistically. My oldest son has had such discernment, ever since before he was able to talk. His spiritual eyes are open. Just last week, as I was sharing the KJV version of the Lord’s prayer that I learned as a kid, my son said: <Gasp!> “MOM!! I see the angels!” (as I was saying the prayer). My second son is very perceptive. Last week, we started reading the book of 1 Kings. As we read chapter 1, which happened to be on the day of inauguration, my second son said: “Mommy, Adonijah is Joe Biden and Solomon is President Trump.” I just admire how they so readily believe in God; and that He can do anything.

Being my husband’s wife is quite the adventure! Prior to meeting him, I never considered myself a morning person…..well at least not early morning. How did I end up with a person who got up EVERY morning at 4 am??????? In the beginning it was rough. My husband is Mr. Talkative and full of all of this energy and these great ideas in the mornings. I did not want to hear him or anyone else until after 9 am. Over time, I realized that getting up with him at 4 am was an opportunity. I could learn about everything on his mind…..no detail left out, if I got up with him. And so I did. Just when I got into the rhythm of getting up at 4, he started getting up at 2. Needless to say, part of my appreciation for being a SAHW is that I can go to bed, get up, and take naps at my leisure.

One of my favorite things about being my husband’s wife, is being a sounding board for him. One day he came home and asked my thoughts on a potentially lucrative business proposal that someone wanted him to invest in. After hearing about it, I said that it didn’t even align with who we were. He called the guy right away and declined the offer.

Though I never imagined that I’d ever be a full-time SAHWM, I am so glad that I am! I enjoy planning their meals and snacks, school days, and the challenge of keeping my home in order. I also enjoy making sure that my husband has good meals before he leaves and when he stops in during the day. I especially enjoy that God has taken such good care of me through it all. He makes sure that I have the help that I need. He makes sure that I get the breaks that I need. He makes sure that I have all that I need. I remember years ago when I saw 2 Corinthians 9:8 in bold black letters in a dream. I woke up and looked it up; and God has been true to His word without fail. When he said that He was able to make all grace (every favor and earthly blessing) COME to me in abundance; He meant it….and nothing less.

Just within the last month or so, a kind stranger paid for my groceries. My sister bought my kids a bunch of new clothes and their favorite treats. My mom also blessed my children with some of their favorite things. My chef brought us a huge box of snacks; and baked us some of her most nutritious treats. I called my husband a couple days ago to ask for the psi of my tires. He showed up two minutes later; and filled all of my tires with air. That was such a blessing; because it has been very COLD here where we live. I recognize all of these things and people to be expressions of God’s love grace being poured out on my family and me. Still one of my most favorite things that God does is the multiple flower deliveries throughout the month. I am still so grateful to God’s nature. He is SO kind and loving to us. I only desired one bouquet of flowers; but God’s thoughts were exceedingly above my thoughts and imagination. He’s so precious; and every time I receive a new flower delivery, my heart overflows with gratitude all over again. God takes care of His children; and I believe He has such a special place in His heart for wives and mothers. If you are a Stay At Home Wife and or Mom, please share how God has treasured and taken care of you.

Today’s flower delivery

God’s Lavishness & Generosity

I’ve been reading the books of I & II Samuel to my children. 2 Samuel 12:8 stood out to me. How giving is YHWH/God to all of us? He gave David Saul’s house and wives; as well as made him king over Israel and Judah, and then said to him: If that wasn’t enough, I would’ve given you more. Who says that? David had cities, houses, wives, servants, horses, mules, sheep, cattle, other farm animals, gold, silver and more….and God said He would have given him more if that wasn’t enough. How generous and lavish is YHWH/God?! Of course I began thinking about the Father’s generosity in my life. I have the kindest and most generous neighbors. We rarely return from our walks empty-hearted or handed. So many times, these people bless us with smiles and compliments. We have picked fruits, veggies and flowers from nearly every neighbor’s yard with a fruit tree or garden. My sweet neighbor Ms. Mare has given the kids so many neat games, toys and experiences. There’s a man who we met once, that leaves toys and games for the kids on our front porch from time to time.

I remember prior to having children, I wanted two boys and a girl (in that order). Not only did YHWH/God bless me with two boys and a girl in that order, He also exceeded my expectation with my baby girl. She is the MOST JOYFUL person I’ve ever had the pleasure of knowing. All of my children are absolute delights and blessings from Father. I just love them and I’m so very grateful that He gave me this great opportunity to train them in His way and impact generations to come. I don’t think it’s possible for YHWH/God to outdo Himself, but I think He came pretty close with these four children.

There is so much to thank YHWH/God for. It would take an eternity to list everything, so I’ll just choose a couple more things. I’m grateful for this country (U.S.A.). It might seem tumultuous right now; but it still is a great country. God loves us; and it’s very evident to me. He’s always looking for opportunities to bless us. I’m so encouraged by what’s going on in some pockets of the country…..thousands of salvations, pastors still having services in spite of fines and threats of being jailed, spontaneous worship breaking out in airports and other venues, believers drawing closer to the Most High. I just love it all!

I’ll end this post with a testimony of YHWH/God’s generosity. He is the most loving, kind and generous being ever. I thought to myself one night: “This house needs some flowers.” This was just a thought. I was thinking that a bouquet on the counter would be nice. Two days later, my husband wakes up and says: “I don’t know why, but I have this desire to get flowers for the house.” The very next day we hired a florist; and she has been bringing multiple bouquets of flowers to my home a couple times a month. Is YHWH/God not lavish and generous?! I was thinking one bouquet; but He was thinking multiple bouquets. I’m also grateful to Father for my husband. He’s a man that considers and hears from YHWH/God on everything. He’s definitely one of the best blessings of my life. I love hearing testimonies about YHWH/God’s goodness. How has He lavishly blessed you?

March Blessings

Each month, I write about the blessings that took place to honor YHWH/God and to remind myself and others of His goodness and faithfulness. During the month of March, I was so grateful for the comfort of YHWH’s/God’s word…especially Psalm 91. For the past year or so, my children and I had been saying this declaration daily. As a result, when many were fearful of the virus, we were unmoved. I take comfort in knowing that power, love and a sound mind comes from YHWH/God; and fear is beneath me, because it doesn’t come from Him. This is why speaking YHWH/God’s word aloud daily, is so vitally important (and powerful).

It has been nice seeing families sitting outside on the porch together; as well as walking riding bikes and playing together. I have also appreciated seeing neighbors greet each other and hold conversations (from a little bit of a distance). I’ve enjoyed this time or rest and restoration so much! I’ve spent more time in YHWH/God’s presence, and have so thoroughly enjoyed and appreciated His love for us. YHWH/God loves us SO much!! I’ve so appreciated the relaxed schedule and just being with my husband and children.

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I’m grateful to YHWH/God yet again, for His leadership and guidance. He sees all and knows all. My husband and I have confessed for years that the word of YHWH/God is the standard for our lives; and that we trust that He CAN NOT mismanage our lives. About a year ago, YHWH/God  told us to take all of our money out of the stock market. We didn’t know why; but we did it. Fast forward to now; and we are so grateful for how He takes care of the details of our life.

I often say, I don’t know how people go through life without YHWH/God. I tried it for a few months many years ago; and I can tell you, it’s was like walking around with a blindfold on; and with my ears plugged. If I didn’t know YHWH/God today, I would get to know Him quick, fast and in a hurry! Don’t waste your time or life, get to know Him today. Say this prayer to invite YHWH/God to be the Lord and savior of your life.

Many blessings,

Yonka